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| Song title | |||
| "Reflect" | |||
| Original Upload Date | |||
| May 27, 2022 | |||
| Singer | |||
| SOLARIA | |||
| Producer(s) | |||
Izzy Vitelli (music, lyrics, illustration)
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| Views | |||
| 700+ (YT), 100+ (NN) | |||
| Links | |||
| YouTube Broadcast / Niconico Broadcast | |||
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Description
"A song about my experience in the mental health ward of the hospital, reflecting on all the times I considered suicide. I haven't tried hurting myself ever since." |
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Lyrics[]
Lie awake
I don't want to be here
I don't want to stay here
Anymore
I've lost count
Too many times
I vilified myself
And so
I fall asleep
Crying and crying again
Listening to that voice
Hide my head under
Frightening sounds from the halls
I don't like it here at all
Broken down
I want to disappear
But nothing in my head's that clear
Waking up
Sat here with my own thoughts
Can't connect the dots
Thinking no one cared
Screaming and yelling aloud
Being put on thin ice
Nothing left for me
I'm shouting just want to be free
Thinking 'bout my trauma
If I could turn back time
I'd rewind those mistakes
The ones that I had thought
That wouldn't last a day
Oh oh
I'm here right now
Listening to that voice
Inside my head
Oh o-oh
It's telling me
What I'm missing
Who I'm gonna be
Saying "please don't go!"
I'm living
I'm changing
I'm waking up
So much yet to come
I'm healing
I'm breathing
I never want to come back
Never gonna try again...