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| Song title | |||
| "illloved" | |||
| Original Upload Date | |||
| June 9, 2024 | |||
| Singer | |||
| Kagamine Len | |||
| Producer(s) | |||
| Views | |||
| 230,000+ | |||
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Lyrics
| Japanese | Romaji | Official English |
| 苦しみを獲る為に生まれてきた事など | kurushimi o eru tame ni umarete kita koto nado | I was born to acquire suffering |
| 本当はとうの昔から知っていたんだ | hontou wa tou no mukashi kara shitte ita nda | Actually, I've known that since long ago |
| だから先生たちも言ってくれたのだろう | dakara senseitachi mo itte kureta no darou | So perhaps that's why the teachers told me too |
| 僕の笑顔は皆を幸せにする為にあるんだって | boku no egao wa mina o shiawase ni suru tame ni aru nda tte | That my smile exists to make everyone happy |
| 可愛く成った僕はただの玩具 | kawaiku natta boku wa tada no omocha | I, who grew up cute, am just a toy |
| 暴力的衝動の捌け口と化す | bouryokuteki shoudou no hakeguchi to kasu | Becoming an outlet for violent impulses |
| ある日、神経が麻痺する程のアレで | aru hi, shinkei ga mahi suru hodo no are de | One day, with THAT enough to numb the nerves |
| 皆は薬漬けの僕を滅茶苦茶におかした | mina wa yakuzuke no boku o mechakucha ni okashita | They f***ed me thoroughly, drenched in medication |
| 揺らぐ瞳の世界 | yuragu hitomi no sekai | The world in my eyes trembles |
| 鋭利な歪がビクドクと | eiri na hizumi ga bikudoku to | Sharp distortions pulse with a twitch, a thump |
| 満悦な朦朧の首達に | man'etsu na mou rou no kubitachi ni | In the haze, to the delighted necks |
| また力無く微笑み返すの | mata chikara naku hohoemi kaesu no | I weakly smile back one more time |
| I'm sorry I was born | ||
| 慈しみが苦痛の為に与えられるから | itsukushimi ga kutsuu no tame ni ataerareru kara | Kindness is given with suffering as a condition |
| 死の恐怖を「愛」と名付けました | shi no kyoufu o "ai" to nazukemashita | That's why I named the fear of death ‘love’ |
| 貴方達がソレを嬉々と放り投げるから | anatatachi ga sore o kiki to houri nageru kara | You all eagerly throw it at me |
| 僕も喜んで僕の命を脅かしました | boku mo yorokonde boku no inochi o odokashimashita | That’s why I also gladly endangered my life |
| 大丈夫だよ | daijoubu da yo | It's okay |
| 明日も僕は | asu mo boku wa | Even tomorrow, |
| 笑顔で傷付いていくから | egao de kizutsuite iku kara | I will keep getting hurt with a smile |
| Their intentions force me to enter into a kind of friendship | ||
| Their affections force me to vomit up the pain of loss | ||
| No one wants to touch something like the love I fearfully show everyone | ||
| I'm dirty | ||
| 優しげなその眼で | yasashige na sono me de | With those gentle eyes, |
| 僕を褒めてくれた人は | boku o homete kureta hito wa | The person who praised me, |
| 一体何を望んでいる？ | ittai nani o nozonde iru? | What exactly do they want from me? |
| 次は何を奪う？ | tsugi wa nani o ubau? | What will they take from me next? |
| ゴミ捨て場に置き去られたツケの裸の反吐塗れ | gomisuteba ni okisarareta tsuke no hadaka no hedo nure | My naked body covered in vomit left at the garbage dump due to the bill for my mistakes |
| 痺れる手足を記憶が鷲掴む | shibireru teashi o kioku ga washi tsukamu | Memories tightly grip my numb limbs |
| あの眩い空へあと一歩 | ano mabayui sora e ato ippo | Just one more step towards that dazzling sky |
| 舞い上がる事さえ許されない | maiagaru koto sae yurusarenai | Not even allowed to soar |
| 僕は 良い子 だから | boku wa ii ko dakara | Because I'm a good boy |
| 僕は 良い子 だから | boku wa ii ko dakara | Because I'm a good boy |
| 僕は 良い子 だから | boku wa ii ko dakara | Because I'm a good boy |
| 僕は イイコ だから | boku wa ii ko dakara | Because I'm a gOoD bOy |
| How could they love me like this? | ||
| 生存の箱庭から | seizon no hakoniwa kara | From the miniature garden of survival |
| 警鐘が響いていた | keishou ga hibiite ita | The alarm bells were ringing |
| 確かな証だなんて | tashika na akashi da nante | "There's no such thing as definite proof in this world," |
| 存在しないんだよと | sonzai shinai nda yo to | they said |
| いつか死んで花を置かれ嗤われる僕に | itsuka shinde hana o okare warawareru boku ni | When I die someday, flowers will be laid upon me and I'll probably be mocked |
| 死の恐怖は「愛」を名乗りました | shinokyoufu wa "ai" o nanorimashita | That's why the fear of death called itself ‘love’ for me |
| 僕が叫び踠き足掻き絶え絶え逝く事で | boku ga sakebi mogaki agaki taedae iku koto de | If by my screaming, struggling, flailing, and eventually perishing, |
| 皆が喜んで居られるのなら | mina ga yorokonde irareru no nara | Everyone can be happy, |
| もう、それでいい | mou, sore de ii | then that's enough for me |
| こんな拙い思考の僕を | konna tsutanai shikou no boku o | Please forgive me |
| どうか許してくれませんか | douka yurushite kuremasen ka | For having such clumsy thoughts |
| 僕の笑顔なんて潰れてしまえばいい | boku no egao nante tsuburete shimaeba ii | I wish my smile would just crumble away |
| この醜悪でどうか皆逃げて欲しいよ | kono shuuaku de douka kai nigete hoshii yo | Please, let everyone escape from this ugliness |
| 僕の本当に大切だったモノ達さえ | boku no hontou ni taisetsu datta mono itaru sae | Since even the things that were truly precious to me |
| お前達に全て焼き殺されてしまうなら | omaetachi ni subete yakikorosarete shimau nara | Have all been burnt to death by you, |
| 優しい人だなんて思われたくなかった | yasashii hitoda nante omowaretakunakatta | I didn't want to be thought of as a kind person |
| 優しい人だなんて言われたくなかった | yasashii hito da nante iwaretakunakatta | I didn't want to be called a kind person |
| 優しい人になんて成りたくなかったんだよ | yasashii hito ni nante naritakunakatta nda yo | I didn't want to become a kind person |
| 優しい人になんて | yasashii hito ni nante | I didn't want to become a kind person… |
| ヤサシイヒトになんて | yasashii hito ni nante | I didn't want to become A KIND PERSON… |
| There's no way I can love myself | ||
| Because I loved my “ “ | ||
| ねえ、先生、僕の、命も、軽いです | nee, sensei, boku no, inochi mo, karui desu | Hey, teacher, my, life, is, cheap, too |
| ねえ、先生、僕は、上手に、笑えています | nee, sensei, boku wa, jouzu ni, waraete imasu | Hey, teacher, I, can, smile, skillfully |
| I'm sorry I was born | ||