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| Song title | |||
| "Fainéant Girl" | |||
| Original Upload Date | |||
| December 31, 2022 | |||
| Singer | |||
| Tsuina-chan | |||
| Producer(s) | |||
| Views | |||
| 160,000+ | |||
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Lyrics
i got sick
and i won't be getting well
they told me there was nothing wrong as far as they could tell
oh well
guess they can't tell very far
i have to be my own clinician, write my own memoir
with a body and a brain so sickening practitioners find it not worth fixing
i'm scared i'm gonna lie down one day and never get back up again
(it's written down on paper, you can't call yourself a faker)
(it's all true now. what'll you do now?)
they don't tell stories about people like me
'cause what is there to tell?
5 pm naps and childproof caps,
my best friends, Adderall and Elavil
(a life sentence served and my body's the cell)
(no, i don't need to die to know that this is hell)
if only i knew how much time i had left
it would've been spent a bit more wise...
and, no, i know, it's not like i died
but it's hard to call what's left of me "alive"
i forget i'm an adult all of the time
'cause my body gave up when i was so young
and now i go throughout life puppet-ing my own corpse,
my own memory, a less alive kind of me
'cause the cells in my organ systems organised
for my involuntary parasuicide
and i swallowed my pride, left my old life behind
but to say i survived, it just feels like a lie
they don't tell stories about people like me
'cause what is there to tell?
5 pm naps and childproof caps,
my best friends, Adderall and Elavil
(a life sentence served and my body's the cell)
(if i'm already dead yet or not, i can't tell)
i'm tired when i wake up, when i'm opening my eyes
when i'm not feeling low, i get tired out by the highs
i'm tired when I go out, when i'm trying to exist
but if i don't, i get tired thinking about the things i missed
i'm tired, just tired, that's all i ever say
because i'm tired of my illnesses making me act this way
tired of being jealous of everybody that's close to me
no, they can't help they're not diseased, that's not the way they chose to be
i miss a life i never had, the everything i could've been
i hope they never have to understand the kind of pain i'm in.
the people i thought i could trust berated me, like that'd help
"you need to pull your weight" when i was trying not to kill myself
you tried to give me "tough love" and then wondered why i got so cold,
the shit i hid to keep you happy, you don't even wanna know
they don't tell stories about people like me
'cause what is there to tell?
5 pm naps and childproof caps,
my best friends, Adderall and Elavil
(a life sentence served and my body's the cell)
(at the mercy of malfunctioning organelles)
shaking uncontrollably, my ibuprofen mornings
(and my prophets are Ramsay and Shepherd and Bell)
nobody would listen, my body was trying to warn me
(and there's only so much medication can help)
doctors said it was somatic, you all thought I was dramatic
(and it's nobody's fault just the cards you're dealt)
yeah, you meant well, but that doesn't mean that it wasn't traumatic
(i got sick and i won't ever be getting well)
now i only hope i don't keep on degenerating
shorter life expectancy, i might as well embrace it
take my medication, get wasted
music-making while i'm sedated
call that crossfaded
hey, look ma, i made it.
Discography
This song was featured on the following album:
External Links
- Carrd - Character Reference Sheet
Unofficial