A Marvelous Contraption

reside in those clever little lies
you'll never know i’m here
watching you from the distant shadows
oh, how you pulled me in

you know i'm not the person at fault
consumed in all the ire
i thought something was out of place
drowning in neurotoxins

these livid memories haunt us
they never got out alive
i knew the pieces were in place
everything was against us

oh can't you see you made a monster
contraption of an ongoing hell
can you blame me for all my horrors
autonomy
oh i am alive

impulsive actions made a wreck
i always intended this
improvement gone over your head
oh why can’t you love me?

unable to see these "so called flaws"
stained black, that’s all i am
i thought i had it under control
but i was led astray

oh these decisions confound me
sensations fuel my being
an endless cycle worth the pain
all ruined from the start

come look at the demon i've become
you walked away
it filled me with rage
i'll never be as good as you
anatomy of a broken soul

i wont rid of the memories from long ago
hold on tight, cause they're the only meaningful things
oh, i wish you were never ever born at all
can't let go of it all, you know it's all your damn fault

oh can't you see you made me angry
nerves torn apart and gore everywhere
go on blame me for all my horrors
i'm in control
oh i feel alive

oh can't you see you made a monster
contraption of an ongoing hell
can you blame me for all my horrors
autonomy
oh i am alive