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| Song title | |||
| "自殺志願者が余命191秒で見た憧憬" Romaji: Jisatsu Shigansha ga Yomei 191-byou de Mita Doukei English: A Suicidal Person's Yearning in Their Last 191 Seconds Official English: A Suicidal Person's Yearning In 191 Seconds | |||
| Original Upload Date | |||
| June 11, 2020 | |||
| Singer | |||
| Otomachi Una | |||
| Producer(s) | |||
| Views | |||
| 89,000+ (NN), 660,000+ (YT) | |||
| Links | |||
| Niconico Broadcast / YouTube Broadcast | |||
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Description
Composer's 20th work. |
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Lyrics
| Japanese | Romaji | English |
| 父さん 母さん | tousan kaasan | Father, Mother, |
| ごめんね | gomen ne | I'm sorry |
| 僕はどうやっても | boku wa dou yatte mo, | No matter what I do, |
| 戻れないみたいだ | modorenai mitai da | It seems like I can no longer go back |
| 遣る瀬無いことばかりが続く、こんな世の中で | yarusenai koto bakari ga tsuzuku, konna yo no naka de | In a world like this where miserable things just keep on happening, |
| 何の取り柄もない僕は平凡な日々を過ごして | nan no torie mo nai boku wa heibon na hibi o sugoshite | I'm a nobody that's living an ordinary life |
| “愛してくれる人"なんて別に居ないから | "aishitekureru hito" nante betsu ni inai kara | There's no one in particular who "loves me" |
| 「この先の人生」に生きる価値などないんだろう、きっと | "kono saki no jinsei" ni ikiru kachi nado nai ndarou, kitto | So my "future life" is not worth living at all, I'm sure |
| 登るビルの階段は | noboru biru no kaidan wa | Though there are fewer flights of stairs in the building I climb |
| 僕が生きた日々より少ないのに | boku ga ikita hibi yori sukunai noni | Than there have been days in my life, |
| 高く、高く、伸ばした躰は | takaku, takaku, nobashita karada wa | Higher and higher, my body stretches |
| 僕を押し潰してしまうだろう | boku o oshitsubushite shimau darou | and crushes me |
| 愛せなかった家族 | aisenakatta kazoku | The family I couldn't love, |
| そんなに多くないけど友達も居た | sonna ni ooku nai kedo tomodachi mo ita | there aren't that many of them, but I had friends too |
| 誰もが日々を生きてるだけで | daremo ga hibi o ikiteru dake de | We're all just living day to day |
| 悪いのは | warui no wa | That bad thing is... |
| 僕だって生きてたかったんだ | boku datte ikitetakatta nda | I too just wanted to live |
| 「誰だってきっとそうでしょう？」 | "dare datte kitto sou deshou?" | "Who doesn't, right?" |
| 正直者が莫迦を見る | shoujikimono ga baka o miru | If this is the kind of world where honest people make fools of themselves, |
| こんな世界なら消えてしまえよ | konna sekai nara kiete shimae yo | then let it disappear |
| 神様、教えて | kamisama, oshiete | God, please tell me |
| 自殺志願者が生きてく理由を | jisatsu shigansha ga ikiteku riyuu o | why a suicidal person should live |
| 嗚咽に似た叫びは空に浮かんで | oetsu ni nita sakebi wa sora ni ukande | A scream that resembles a sob rings rises into the sky |
| 足元が揺れるよ | ashimoto ga yureru yo | And my feet become unsteady |
| もう戻れないだろう | mou modorenai darou | I guess there's no going back now |
| 騒がしい朝の街で 少年がビルから飛び降りたニュース | sawagashii asa no machi de shounen ga biru kara tobiorita nyuusu | In the bustling city morning, there's news of the boy that jumped off a building |
| 「誰も僕の心の中まで、見ちゃいなくて」 | "dare mo boku no kokoro no naka made, micha inakute" | "No one ever wonder what's going on in my head." |
| 苦しさの中 生きる不安に苛まれてしまうけれど | kurushisa no naka ikiru fuan ni sainamarete shimau keredo | In the midst of suffering, the anxiety of living torments me endlessly |
| 吐き出した言葉さえ誰にも届きやしないから | hakidashita kotoba sae dare ni mo todokiyashinai kara | But the words I spit out never reach anyone, |
| 終わらせたいんだよ | owarasetai nda yo | So I want to end it all. |
| 見渡す涙の海は | miwatasu namida no umi wa | The sea of tears you view |
| 霞んでいくこの瞳に見えないのに | kasunde iku kono me ni mienai noni | I can't see in these misty eyes. |
| 深く、深く 潜った心は | fukaku, fukaku mogutta kokoro wa | Deeper and deeper my heart goes |
| 僕を溺れさせてしまうだろう | boku o oboresasete shimau darou | and makes me drown. |
| 愛していた日々も | aishite ita hibi mo | Even on the days when I loved, |
| どこかに代わりがいると解っているから | dokoka ni kawari ga iru to wakatte iru kara | I knew that somewhere out there was a replacement |
| 誰もが孤独を恐れながら | daremo ga kodoku o osorenagara | Thus we all fear loneliness |
| 憂いているんだろう | ureite iru ndarou | while being anxious about it |
| 答えなんて、 | kotae nante, | As for an answer, |
| きっと誰も持っていないのに | kitto dare mo motte inai no ni | Surely no one has one, yet ... |
| 僕だって死にたくはないんだ | boku datte shinitaku wa nai nda | I don't want to die either |
| いつだって目を逸してた | itsu datte me o soreshiteta | I've always just looked away |
| 優しさばかり奪われる | yasashisa bakari ubawareru | An age like these where kindness is only ever stolen, |
| こんな時代なら捨ててしまえよ | konna jidai nara sutete shimae yo | You should just throw it away |
| ねえ、いま教えて | nee, ima oshiete | Hey, tell me now |
| 円周率3で割れる輪廻を | enshuuritsu san de wareru rinne o | About the circle of life that's divided by pi that's 3 |
| 嗚咽が鼓膜を切り裂いて | oetsu ga komaku o kirisaite | My sobs are tearing my eardrums apart |
| 朝日に"さよなら"を告げるよ | asahi ni "sayonara" o tsugeru yo | as I say goodbye to the sunrise |
| 「もう戻れない」なんて、思いたくはなかったな | "mou modorenai" nante, omoitaku wa nakatta na | I didn't want to think that I couldn't come back |
| いつか 生まれ変われる日が来るなら | itsuka umarekawareru hi ga kuru nara | If there was ever a day someday when I could be born again, |
| 今、この景色を―― | ima, kono keshiki o―― | This is view right now—— |
English translation by Anonymous, revised by ElectricRaichu