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Song title
"自傷無色"
Romaji: Jishou Mushoku
English: Self-Inflicted Colorlessness[1]
Original Upload Date
January 20, 2013
Singer
Hatsune Miku
Producer(s)
nekobolo (music, lyrics, video)
Views
2,700,000+
Links
Niconico Broadcast / YouTube Broadcast (reprint, subbed)


Lyrics

Japanese Romaji English
君のようなひとになりたいな kimi no you na hito ni naritai na I want to be someone like you. 
「僕らしいひと」になりたいな "boku rashii hito" ni naritai na I want to be someone that feels very "me."
望むならそうすりゃいいけどさ nozomu nara sou surya ii kedo sa If I want to, I can just go and do it. 
でもそれってほんとにぼくなのかい demo sore tte honto ni boku nano kai But then would that really be me?

子供騙しな夢一つ kodomo damashina yume hitotsu One child's-play dream.
こんな僕なら死ねばいいのに konna boku nara shineba ii noni The way I am, someone like me is better off dead

こんな僕が生きてるだけで konna boku ga ikiteru dake de Where someone like me being alive 
何万人のひとが悲しんで nanmannin no hito ga kanashinde brings sadness to tens of thousands of people
誰も僕を望まない dare mo boku o nozomanai And no one wants me:
そんな世界だったらいいのにな sonna sekai dattara ii noni na I wish that's the kind of world it was.

こんな僕が消えちゃうだけで konna boku ga kiechau dake de If by just wiping me away
何億人のひとが喜んで nan'okunin no hito ga yorokonde Hundreds of millions of people rejoiced
誰も何も憎まないなら dare mo nani mo nikumanai nara And no one held hatred for anything
そんなうれしいことはないな sonna ureshii koto wa nai na Then I couldn't be happier.

明日も僕は夢うつつ ashita mo boku wa yume utsutsu Tomorrow, I'll still tread between reality and dreams.
このまま僕は消えていいのに kono mama boku wa kiete ii noni Just like that, I'd love to disappear.

こんな僕が生きたところで konna boku ga ikita tokorode Where someone like me being alive 
何億人のひとは知らないし nan'okunin no hito wa shiranai shi Doesn't even register for hundreds of millions of people
誰も僕を望まない dare mo boku o nozomanai And no one wants me:
そんな世界だったらいいのかな sonna sekai dattara ii no kana If that were the world, would that be okay?

こんな僕が消えたところで konna boku ga kieta tokorode Even if I were wiped away
何億人のひとは変わらない nan'okunin no hito wa kawaranai That wouldn't change some hundred million people.
誰も僕を憎まないなら dare mo boku o nikumanai nara If no one will resent me, then 
損した事に変わりないな sonshita koto ni kawari nai na The result's the same, a loss for me. 

最期なんか皆同じように倒れてゆきます saigo nanka minna onaji you ni taorete yukimasu In the end, everyone collapses in the same manner. 
メイドイン 他人 の 「自分自身」崩れてゆきます meido in tannin no "jibun jishin" kuzurete yukimasu "My Self" made in others will crumble away.
最期なんかみんな同じように離れてくのに saigo nanka minna onaji you ni hanareteku no ni In the end, everyone separates the same way—but—

こんな僕が生きてるだけで konna boku ga ikiteru dake de Just because I'm alive 
なんで君はそんなに笑うの nande kimi wa sonna ni warau no Why do you smile so much?
君がそんな笑顔じゃ kimi ga sonna egao ja If you smile like that 
悲しくても消えたくても kanashikute mo kietakute mo No matter how sad, how much I want to disappear—
さよならする理由なんてもう sayonara suru riyuu nante mou If only all my reasons to say good-bye
無ければいいのに nakereba ii noni Went away.

こんな僕が消えたところで konna boku ga kieta tokorode Even if I were wiped away
何億人のひとは変わらない nan'okunin no hito wa kawaranai That wouldn't change some hundred million people.
だけど僕を止める何かが dakedo boku o tomeru nanika ga But there's something preventing me 
そんな顔しちゃ笑えないや sonna kao shicha waraenai ya And showing me that face, I can't bear to laugh about it

English translation by zcatcracker

Translation Notes

  1. 自傷 means "self-harm" or "self-injury" while 無色 as a noun is "colorlessness," so the idea of the title is that the singer's "colorlessness" is harming them, with the implication that this "colorlessness" is something the singer brings upon themself; the singer is perhaps intentionally harming themselves with "colorlessness." It's also worth noting that 無色 is a homophone for 無職, so the title may also imply "Self-Inflicted Joblessness."

Discography

This song was featured on the following albums:

Notable Derivatives

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25-ji, Night Chord de. × Hatsune Miku's cover
Featuring: 25-ji, Night Chord de. and Hatsune Miku
Producer(s): スオウ (illustration), omu (video)
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Mafumafu's cover
Featuring: Mafumafu
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Ken Kamikita's cover
Featuring: Ken Kamikita
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Hanatan's cover
Featuring: Hanatan
NN YT
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JubyPhonic's English cover
Featuring: JubyPhonic
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