病み垢ステロイド (Yamiaka Steroid)


Song title
"病み垢ステロイド" Romaji: Yamiaka Suteroido English: Vent Account Steroid Official English: Yamiaka Steroid
Original Upload Date
February 3, 2024
Singer
Hatsune Miku
Producer(s)
Kairiki Bear (music, lyrics) nou (illustration)
Views
690,000+ (NN), 2,000,000+ (YT)
Links
Niconico Broadcast / YouTube Broadcast
Description

Lyrics

Japanese	Romaji	English
愛してるのに　愛してるのに　ある日　迷子に　凍てつく闇に	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni aruhi maigo ni itetsuku yami ni	Though I love you so much, though I love you so much, one day I got lost in the darkness and froze up.
愛してるのに　愛してるのに　暮れる哀しみ　胸に突き刺し	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni kureru kanashimi mune ni tsukisashi	Though I love you so much, though I love you so much, the overwhelming sorrow pierces my heart.
愛してるのに	aishiteru no ni	Though I love you so much.

散乱してく自陣　縫い縫い　アンラッキーLAGOON 死屍累々	sanran shiteku jijin nui nui anrakkii LAGOON shishiiruirui	My quarters^[1] are a mess. I'm sewing, sewing. In the unlucky LAGOON, corpses pile up.
安楽死レビュー　チチンプイプイ　駄　駄　駄　堕落	anraku shi rebyuu chichinpuipui da da da daraku	Euthanasia reviews say the “pain pain went away.” Degraded, degraded, degraded degradation.
TUTORIAL(案内)は無く　道えぐいぐい　反感買い苦痛　でかい杭　杭	annai wa naku michi egui gui hankan kai kutsuu dekai kui kui	There’s no tutorial for this, this road is brutal. Antagonising others with my suffering, huge nails stick out.^[2]
半壊してく意思　憂い憂い　順風満帆(Ⅳ　Ⅴ　Ⅲm　Ⅵm)妬んで	hankai shiteku ishi ui ui yon go san roku netande	My willpower’s being half-destroyed, how miserable. I envy your smooth sailing.^[3]

なんで　なんで　つらい　なんで　なんで　炎症(あかい)	nande nande tsurai nande nande akai	Why, why is it so painful? Why, why is it inflamed bright red?
満たされないね　なんで痛い　一生こんなんばっか　寝そべり床	mitasarenai ne nande itai isshou konnan bakka nesoberi yuka	I’m not satisfied, huh? Why does it hurt so much? All I’ll do is lie on the floor like this for my whole life.
おくすりも授けましょ	okusuri mo sazukemasho	Shall I give you medicine too?

愛してるのに　愛してるのに　まるで他人他人　気持ちはDUMMY　DUMMY	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni marude tanin tanin kimochi wa DUMMY DUMMY	Though I love you so much, though I love you so much, it’s almost like you’re a stranger. I feel like a DUMMY DUMMY.
ヒトリ　病(やみ) 病(やみ)　分かり合えずに堕ちる	hitori yami yami wakariaezu ni ochiru	I’m sick, sick with solitude. We fall^[4] without understanding each other at all.
なんでなんでなんで　泣いてんのってさ	nande nande nande naiten no tte sa	Why, why, why am I crying? See!

アーアーアーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	aa aa aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	Ah, ah, ah, ah. Shupi-paripa, pipipi.
しゅぴ　ぱに　ぴぴぴ　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　んんん	shupi pani pipipi shupipaariipa nnn	Shupi-pani, pipipi, shupi-paripa. Huh?
嫌　嫌　アーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	iya iya aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	No, no! Ahh, ahh, shupi-paripa, pipipi.
しゅぴ　ぱに　しゅぴぱ　しゅぴぱーりー　しんどいな	shupi pani shupipa shupipaarii shindoi na	Shupi-pani, shupi-pa, shupi-pari-sick of this…

あ　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は	a ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha	Ah ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は	ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha	ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

なんで　なんで　つらい　なんで　なんで　炎症(あかい)	nande nande tsurai nande nande akai	Why, why is it so painful? Why, why is it inflamed bright red?
治んない　ガーゼ　ガーゼ　不快　一生　混乱ばっか　惨めなストーリー	naonnai gaaze gaaze fukai isshou konran bakka mijime na sutoorii	I won’t get better. The gauze, the gauze is so uncomfortable. My whole life is no more than a miserable story running amok with chaos.
おくすりも授けましょ	okusuri mo sazukemasho	Shall I give you medicine too?
よだれ垂れ　おくすり増やしましょ	yodaretare okusuri fuyashimasho	Drool dripping, shall we up your dosage?

愛してるのに　愛してるのに　言わば他人他人　相槌はDUMMY　DUMMY	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni iwaba tanin tanin aizuchi wa DUMMY DUMMY	Though I love you so much, though I love you so much, as it is, you’re a stranger. Backchanneling like a DUMMY DUMMY.
ヒトリ　病(やみ) 病(やみ)　タイムライン等(ら)に浸かる	hitori yami yami taimurainra ni tsukaru	I’m sick, sick with solitude. I’m totally engrossed in my TLs.
なんでなんでなんで　泣いてんのってさ	nande nande nande naiten no tte sa	Why, why, why am I crying? See?!

アーアーアーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	aa aa aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	Ah, ah, ah, ah. Shupi-paripa, pipipi.
しゅぴ　ぱに　ぴぴぴ　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　んんん	shupi pani pipipi shupipaariipa nnn	Shupi-pani, pipipi, shupi-paripa. Huh?
嫌　嫌　アーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	iya iya aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	No, no! Ahh, ahh, shupi-paripa, pipipi.
しゅぴ　ぱに　しゅぴぱ　しゅぴぱーりー　ぴぴぴぴ	shupi pani shupipa shupipaarii pipipipi	Shupi-pani, shupi-pa, shupi-pari, pipipipi.
しゅぴ　ぱに　しゅぴぱ　しゅぴぱーりー　うっさいな	shupi pani shupipa shupipaarii ussai na	Shupi-pani, shupi-pa, shupi-pari-so damn annoying…

愛してるのに　愛してるのに　打ち付けるように　標す哀れに	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni uchitsukeru you ni shirusu aware ni	Though I love you so much, though I love you so much, in order to hammer down these nails, you leave a stamp on my sorrow.^[5]
愛してるのに　愛してるのに　陰に根を張り　脱け殻のように	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni kage ni ne o hari nukegara no you ni	Though I love you so much, though I love you so much, I’ll put down roots behind closed doors, as if discarding my husk.
愛してたのに	aishiteta no ni	Even though I had loved you so much…

English translation by Noir, with edits by MeaningfulUsername and Violet

Translation Notes

↑ I’m assuming “自陣” here means personal space. I tried to think of a more apt way to convey that and settled with “my quarters” as in an allocated space, but given the menhera hikkineet sort of vibe I’m getting from this, "my room" could work as an alternative.
↑ Likely referencing the idiom “出る杭は打たれる”/"the nail that sticks out gets hammered down."
↑ (Ⅳ　Ⅴ　Ⅲm　Ⅵm) references the Royal road progression.
↑ There's a double meaning here - "falling down" but also "falling in love".
↑ Could possibly be a metaphor for leaving likes on vent tweets.

Japanese	Romaji	English
愛してるのに　愛してるのに　ある日　迷子に　凍てつく闇に	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni aruhi maigo ni itetsuku yami ni	Even though I have loved you, even though I have loved you, I'll be just like a lost child, freezing in the cold darkness
愛してるのに　愛してるのに　暮れる哀しみ　胸に突き刺し	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni kureru kanashimi mune ni tsukisashi	Even though I have loved you, even though I have loved you, the deepening sorrow just feels like it’s piercing my heart.
愛してるのに	aishiteru no ni	Even though I have loved you...

散乱してく自陣　縫い縫い　アンラッキーLAGOON 死屍累々	sanran shiteku jijin nui nui anrakkii LAGOON shishiiruirui	My turf scatters as I sew it all up; in an unlucky lagoon piled with corpses.
安楽死レビュー　チチンプイプイ　駄　駄　駄　堕落	anraku shi rebyuu chichinpuipui da da da daraku	Euthanasia – review: there, there, it de-de-de-degrades.
TUTORIAL(案内)は無く　道えぐいぐい　反感買い苦痛　でかい杭　杭	annai wa naku michi egui gui hankan kai kutsuu dekai kui kui	Provoking resentment causes suffering, a nail begging to be hammered down
半壊してく意思　憂い憂い　順風満帆(Ⅳ　Ⅴ　Ⅲm　Ⅵm)妬んで	hankai shiteku ishi ui ui yon go san roku netande	Intentions gradually crumbling melancholically – “It’s all going well” I’m jealous

なんで　なんで　つらい　なんで　なんで　炎症(あかい)	nande nande tsurai nande nande akai	Oh why, oh why does it hurt - just why oh why is it red (inflamed) – it's not enough, right?
満たされないね　なんで痛い　一生こんなんばっか　寝そべり床	mitasarenai ne nande itai isshou konnan bakka nesoberi yuka	Oh why, oh why does it hurt? Just lying sprawled like this on the floor all my life
おくすりも授けましょ	okusuri mo sazukemasho	Shall I administer the medicine?

愛してるのに　愛してるのに　まるで他人他人　気持ちはDUMMY　DUMMY	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni marude tanin tanin kimochi wa DUMMY DUMMY	Even though I have loved you, even though I have loved you, it's as if we're just strangers, and emotions are just dummies
ヒトリ　病(やみ) 病(やみ)　分かり合えずに堕ちる	hitori yami yami wakariaezu ni ochiru	Alone falling into darkness without understanding each other.
なんでなんでなんで　泣いてんのってさ	nande nande nande naiten no tte sa	So why oh why the hell are am I crying now, huh?

アーアーアーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	aa aa aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	Aa aa aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi
しゅぴ　ぱに　ぴぴぴ　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　んんん	shupi pani pipipi shupipaariipa nnn	Shupi pani pipipi shupipaariipa nnn
嫌　嫌　アーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	iya iya aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	NO! NO! AH! AH! SHUPIPARIIPAPI PIPIPI
しゅぴ　ぱに　しゅぴぱ　しゅぴぱーりー　しんどいな	shupi pani shupipa shupipaarii shindoi na	SHUPI PANI SHUPIPA SHUPIPARII It's tough, right?

あ　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は	a ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha	AH HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は　は	ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha	HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

なんで　なんで　つらい　なんで　なんで　炎症(あかい)	nande nande tsurai nande nande akai	Oh why, oh why does it hurt - just why oh why is it red (inflamed) – It won't heal!
治んない　ガーゼ　ガーゼ　不快　一生　混乱ばっか　惨めなストーリー	naonnai gaaze gaaze fukai isshou konran bakka mijime na sutoorii	Gauze after gauze: unease – a lifetime of nothing but chaos, a miserable story.
おくすりも授けましょ	okusuri mo sazukemasho	Let me give you some damn medicine too
よだれ垂れ　おくすり増やしましょ	yodaretare okusuri fuyashimasho	And now youre drooling, so then should we go up the dosage

愛してるのに　愛してるのに　言わば他人他人　相槌はDUMMY　DUMMY	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni iwaba tanin tanin aizuchi wa DUMMY DUMMY	Even though I have loved you, even though I have loved you, it's like we're speaking to strangers, we’re nodding along like DUMMIES
ヒトリ　病(やみ) 病(やみ)　タイムライン等(ら)に浸かる	hitori yami yami taimurainra ni tsukaru	Alone drowning in darkness: immersed looking at “timelines” and such
なんでなんでなんで　泣いてんのってさ	nande nande nande naiten no tte sa	So why oh why the hell am I crying now, huh?!

アーアーアーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	aa aa aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	Aa aa aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi
しゅぴ　ぱに　ぴぴぴ　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　んんん	shupi pani pipipi shupipaariipa nnn	Shupi pani pipipi shupipaariipa nnn
嫌　嫌　アーアー　しゅぴぱーりーぱ　ぴぴぴ	iya iya aa aa shupipaariipa pipipi	NO! NO! AH! AH! SHUPIPARIIPAPI PIPIPI
しゅぴ　ぱに　しゅぴぱ　しゅぴぱーりー　ぴぴぴぴ	shupi pani shupipa shupipaarii pipipipi	Shupi pani shupipa shupiparii pipipipi
しゅぴ　ぱに　しゅぴぱ　しゅぴぱーりー　うっさいな	shupi pani shupipa shupipaarii ussai na	SHUPI PANI SHUPIPA SHUPIPARII SHUT YOUR MOUTH!~

愛してるのに　愛してるのに　打ち付けるように　標す哀れに	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni uchitsukeru you ni shirusu aware ni	Even though I have loved you, even though I have loved you, I was marked pitifully, as if struck down forcefully
愛してるのに　愛してるのに　陰に根を張り　脱け殻のように	aishiteru no ni aishiteru no ni kage ni ne o hari nukegara no you ni	Even though I have loved you, even though I have loved you, taking root in the shadows, just like a discarded shell.
愛してたのに	aishiteta no ni	Even though I had loved you...

English translation by Deadlyshrubs, with edits by MeaningfulUsername and Violet

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[1] I’m assuming “自陣” here means personal space. I tried to think of a more apt way to convey that and settled with “my quarters” as in an allocated space, but given the menhera hikkineet sort of vibe I’m getting from this, "my room" could work as an alternative.

[2] Likely referencing the idiom “出る杭は打たれる”/"the nail that sticks out gets hammered down."

[3] (Ⅳ　Ⅴ　Ⅲm　Ⅵm) references the Royal road progression.

[4] There's a double meaning here - "falling down" but also "falling in love".

[5] Could possibly be a metaphor for leaving likes on vent tweets.

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