命ばっかり (Inochi Bakkari)


Song title
"命ばっかり" Romaji: Inochi Bakkari Official English: It's Just Life English: Nothing but Life
Original Upload Date
August 4, 2017
Singer
flower Yuzuki Yukari (chorus)
Producer(s)
nuyuri (music, lyrics) avogado6 (movie) KurageP (guitar) Nakamura Ryouma (mastering)
Views
4,200,000+ (NN), 27,000,000+ (YT), 600,000+ (BB)
Links
Niconico Broadcast / YouTube Broadcast / bilibili Broadcast
Description

Alternate Versions

MEIKO x 25-ji, Nightcord de. ver.

Upload date: January 9, 2024

Featuring: MEIKO and 25-ji, Nightcord de.

YT (auto-gen)

Lyrics

Note: This song has been known as "It's Only Life" in Western fandom but "Nothing But Life" is a more accurate translation.

Japanese	Romaji	English
日々を磨り潰していく貴方との時間は	hibi o suritsubushite iku anata to no jikan wa	The time I spend with you, grinding days to nothing
簡単なことじゃ許せないくらいに	kantan na koto ja yurusenai kurai ni	is such an easy thing to do, it became weird
おかしくなってしまった　安心したいだけの	okashiku natte shimatta anshin shitai dake no	to the point it’s unforgivable, I just want some peace of mind
口先だけじゃ　いや　いや	kuchisaki dake ja iya iya	empty words aren’t enough, no, no

どこまでも単純だ　ここまでと悟った	doko made mo tanjun da koko made to satotta	I’m simple in every respect, I’ve realized that so far
座り込んでもう歩けなくなる	suwarikonde mou arukenaku naru	I sit down and become unable to walk anymore

最初だけじゃないなら　際限もないならば	saisho dake ja nai nara saigen mo nai naraba	If it’s not only the beginning, if there are no limits
どこへだって行けるはずさ	doko e datte ikeru hazu sa	I should be able to go anywhere

遠くへ遠くへ水の味を覚え	tooku e tooku e mizu no aji o oboe	Going far, far away, remembering the taste of water
街路に目が眩み夜を越えてしまう	gairo ni me ga kurami yoru o koete shimau	On the streets, I feel dizzy and end up passing through the night
遠くへ遠くへ動けない僕のことを忘れて	tooku e tooku e ugokenai boku no koto o wasurete	Going far, far away, forgetting about the me who’s stuck in place

知らないを知りたかった	shiranai o shiritakatta	I wanted to know about what I don’t know
知り得ることはなかった	shirieru koto wa nakatta	But there was nothing to know

水圧で動けなくなっていく　また蝶の夢を見る	suiatsu de ugokenaku natte iku mata chou no yume o miru	The pressure of water renders me unable to move, I dream of a butterfly once again^[1]
好きになりたかったんだ　好きになれなかったんだ	suki ni naritakatta nda suki ni narenakatta nda	I wanted to like it, but I couldn’t like it

「正しい」を理想としていたら	'tadashii' o risou to shite itara	When I made “what is right” my ideal
置いて行かれた	oite ikareta	I got left behind
追いつけなくなったんだ	oitsukenaku natta nda	and became unable to catch up to it

当たり前に過ぎていくはずだった時間は	atarimae ni sugite iku hazu datta jikan wa	The time that was supposed to pass ordinarily
何十年とも感じるほど長く	nanjuunen tomo kanjiru hodo nagaku	feels as long as decades
眠りすぎた頭痛で這い出してきた僕は	nemurisugita zutsuu de haidashite kita boku wa	This is because I can’t go anywhere anymore
どこにももう行けやしないから	doko ni mo mou ikeyashinai kara	Me, who crawled out with a headache from sleeping too much

どこまでも純情だ　それでしかなかった	doko made mo junjou da sore de shika nakatta	I’m pure-hearted in every respect, it’s all I could be
飾らないで　分かち合いたいから	kazaranaide wakachiaitai kara	since I want to share my plain self
貴方の影が眩む　見失ってしまった	anata no kage ga kuramu miushinatte shimatta	But your shadow is obscured and I ended up losing sight of it
また眠れない夜になっていく	mata nemurenai yoru ni natte iku	This is going to be a sleepless night once again

「どうしたいの」なんて問えば「どうもしない」なんて返す	'dou shitai no' nante toeba 'dou mo shinai' nante kaesu	When I ask “what do you want to do”, you retort “nothing at all”
貴方はもう何も教えてくれないの	anata wa mou nani mo oshiete kurenai no	You won’t tell me anything anymore
今日食べた食事も　行きたい場所さえもう	kyou tabeta shokuji mo ikitai basho sae mou	Today’s meal, even the place where I’d like to go
何にも　どれをとってもわからないだけだ	nanni mo dore o tottemo wakaranai dake da	Anything, no matter what I choose, I just don’t know anymore

遠くへ遠くへ水の味を覚え	tooku e tooku e mizu no aji o oboe	Going far, far away, remembering the taste of water
街路に目が眩み夜を越えてしまう	gairo ni me ga kurami yoru o koete shimau	On the streets, I feel dizzy and end up passing through the night
遠くへ遠くへ動けない僕のことを忘れて	tooku e tooku e ugokenai boku no koto o wasurete	Going far, far away, forgetting about the me who’s stuck in place

貴方の横顔を見て引け目を感じてしまった	anata no yokogao o mite hikeme o kanjite shimatta	Looking at your profile, I felt so very small
救われたいとだけ喚く僕はきっともう我楽多だ	sukuwaretai to dake wameku boku wa kitto mou garakuta da	I’m surely garbage now, me, who cries out that all I want is to be saved

思想犯はもう止めた	shisouhan wa mou yameta	I’ve given up on thought crimes
「分かれない」を悟っていた	'wakarenai' o satotte ita	I’ve understood that “I can't understand”

とりとめのない言葉だけでは	toritome no nai kotoba dake de wa	I can’t tear off the thin paper
薄紙を剥がせない	usugami o hagasenai	with only ramblings and meaningless words

普通に固執することが	futsuu ni koshitsu suru koto ga	Sticking to what’s considered normal
怖くてもう泣きそうだ	kowakute mou nakisou da	is so scary, I’m on the verge of crying

自堕落を鏡で見ていたら	jidaraku o kagami de mite itara	When I’m looking at my own depravity in the mirror
薄っぺらだ	usuppera da	it’s shallow,
薄っぺらだ	usuppera da	shallow,
薄っぺらだ	usuppera da	so shallow,
薄っぺらな僕だった	usuppera na boku datta	That was the shallow me

ぼくだ	boku da	That’s me
ぼくだ	boku da	It’s me
僕だけだったんだ	boku dake datta nda	It was me and only me

English translation by 6oose

Translation Notes

↑ I think this might be a reference to The Diving Bell and the Butterfly (japanese title : 潜水服は蝶の夢を見る - A Diving suit dreams of butterflies) by Jean-Dominique Bauby. The book describes Bauby’s life after suffering a massive stroke that left him with a condition known as locked-in syndrome, in which Bauby compares his body, paralyzed, to a deep-sea diving suit, and his spirit, still alive and free to wander, to a butterfly.