フェイタルエゴ (Fatal Ego)

Song title
"フェイタルエゴ" Romaji: Feitaru Ego English: Fatal Ego
Original Upload Date
July 28, 2022
Singer
KAFU
Producer(s)
Aoris (music, lyrics)
Views
180,000+ (NN), 43,000+ (YT)
Links
Niconico Broadcast / YouTube Broadcast
Description Aoris's entry to the Vocaloid Song Anonymous Upload Festival.

Lyrics

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The following translation was made by Tackmyn Y., and may only be used in accordance with the restrictions stated on his blog.

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Japanese	Romaji	English
醜状呈している小団円	shuutai teishite iru shoudan'en	Disgraceful is this paltry denouement.
アネクドトスに縋って	anekudotosu ni sugatte	Clinging on to the anecdote,
冗々、虚妄の焦燥	joujou, kyomou no shousou	I’m long-windedly fretting over nothing.
圧(へ)された容	hesareta you	What a squashed content!
茫々たる心理の倦労を	bouboutaru shinri no kenrou o	This obscure, mental fatigue
培った腑甲斐無い様相	tsuchikatta fugainai yousou	Has been fostered in a shiftless manner.
形骸すら欠いていて	keigai sura kaite ite	It’s lacking even in its empty shell;
夙に散っていたって	tsuto ni chitte ita tte	Though it’s long since scattered,
屹度そう希っている	kitto sou koinegatte iru	I strongly do wish it were so.
だけの、今日を	dake no, kyou o	That’s all I did today,
繰り返した理由を	kurikaeshita riyuu o	And day after day; lest I grasp
掴まないよう叛(そむ)いた	tsukamanai you somuita	The reason why I did that, I ran counter to it,
から闌(すが)れている	kara sugarete iru	Which should be why I’m shriveling now.
挙句は咲(わら)えない	ageku wa waraenai	As a result, smiles won’t bloom upon me.
寸途そうだろう	zutto sou darou	Never will I come to wear one,
朱色が濁る迄は	shuiro ga nigoru made wa	Until the vermilion becomes thick.
僻んでうらぶれて臍噛んで	higande uraburete heso kande	Growing jealous, going downhill, regretting bitterly,
一切の御役目は捨て置いて	issai no oyakume wa suteoite	And leaving everything as it stands, sitting on my hands,
獄の辺での救を	goku no be de no sukui o	On the bank of the inferno, I’ve always
待っているんだ	matte iru nda	Been waiting for salvation,
伸々(のうのう)と！	nounou to!	In such a sluggish way!
託(ことづ)けて感(かま)けて穿(つらぬ)いて	kotozukete kamakete tsuranuite	Putting out an alibi, being too busy with a single task, sticking to it,
狼狽え蹲り遁げていて	urotae uzukumari nigete ite	Panicking, crouching, and falling from reality—
不埒な胸の奥に	furachi na mune no oku ni	My unpardonable mind
巣食っている迷妄、	sukutte iru meimou,	Is haunted by illusions,
僮蒙(どうもう)、冥々(めいめい)、傾頽(けいたい)、	doumou, meimei, keitai,	Ignorance, dimness, disintegration,
懊悩(おうのう)、潺湲(せんかん)、澎湃(ほうはい)、	ounou, senkan, houhai,	Anguish, whimpering, groundswell,
卦体(けったい)、沮喪(そそう)、因業(いんごう)	kettai, sosou, ingou	Ominousness, demoralization, and karma.
徒(いたずら)に千切れて疎を抱いて	itazura ni chigirete so o daite	Pointlessly breaking into pieces, embracing sparsity,
弥縫(びぼう)すら出来ずに手を焼いて	bibou sura dekizu ni te o yaite	Being incompetent to patch things up and having a hard time with it,
疚しいぐらい穢れてる大義背負って	yamashii gurai kegareteru taigi seotte	I’m burdened with opprobriously defiled justice;
南無阿弥陀！	namuamida!	Homage to Amida Buddha!
彼岸でも変わらず臍噛んで	higan demo kawarazu heso kande	Even in Nirvana, I never stop blaming myself,
退嬰的態度で二の舞へ	taieiteki taido de ninomai e	And I adopt a conservative policy only to fall into the same rut.
致命的な自我の滓(おり)	chimeiteki na jiga no ori	The sediment of this fatal ego;
宿ったまま転生(てんしょう)を！	yadotta mama tenshou o!	As it still dwells here, reincarnate me!

English translation by Tackmyn Y.

External Links

• Google Drive - Instrumental and lyrics

Unofficial

• VocaDB
• Hatsune Miku Wiki
• Tackmyn’s House - Translation source