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| Song title | |||
| "まだ。と" Romaji: Mada. To English: “Not Yet,” I Said | |||
| Original Upload Date | |||
| February 18, 2023 | |||
| Singer | |||
| Kaai Yuki Hatsune Miku, Yuzuki Yukari (chorus) | |||
| Producer(s) | |||
mia (music, lyrics)
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| Views | |||
| 800+ (NN), 29,000+ (YT) | |||
| Links | |||
| Niconico Broadcast / YouTube Broadcast | |||
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Description
“Contradiction and true feelings” - Producer’s comment on Niconico “This is what’s always on my mind.” - Producer’s comment on YouTube |
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Lyrics
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| Japanese | Romaji | English |
| 「明日からは」で成功した！！僕は他の人とは違うんだって | "ashita kara wa" de seikou shita!! boku wa hoka no hito to wa chigau ndatte | “Starting tomorrow,” and I made it!! See, I’m different from others. |
| 今まで通り 元通り そしらた苦しみなんか無くなった | ima madedoori motodoori soshirata kurushimi nanka nakunatta | The same as always, the same as before. And then, I’m released from pain. |
| とっても充実した日々だ！！ただ何かが足りない気がして | tottemo juujitsu shita hibi da!! tada nanika ga tarinai ki ga shite | What fulfilling days!! Yet, I feel like something is missing. |
| またまたまたこぼれそうにほら巣食って 掬って 救って | mata mata mata koboresou ni hora sukutte sukutte sukutte | Again and again and again, I’m about to spill out, and it haunts me. Scoop it, and save me. |
| 「明日からは」で成功した！！頭の中で声がする | "ashita kara wa" de seikou shita!! atama no naka de koe ga suru | “Starting tomorrow,” and I made it!! I hear a voice in my head. |
| 嫌いって キモイって 嫌って やめてやめて気付かせないで | kirai tte kimoi tte iya tte yamete yamete kizukasenai de | “I hate you,” “You’re disgusting,” “so sick”—no, please stop! Don’t make me realize it. |
| その場しのぎで患った 罵詈雑言許しちゃって泣いている | sono bashinogi de wazuratta barizougon yurushichatte naite iru | I fell ill ad hoc. I tolerated the verbal abuse and am crying. |
| 自問自答 しない微笑 嘲笑 笑ってたって次の日には死んでたい | jimon jidou shinai bishou choushou waratteta tte tsugi no hi ni wa shindetai | Soliloquy. No smiles, just ridicule. I might be laughing now, but I’ll feel like dying next day. |
| 朝日が残した傷だって | asahi ga nokoshita kizu datte | Even the scars left by the morning sun |
| これは嘘じゃないって必死に叫んでる | kore wa uso janai tte hisshi ni sakenderu | Is desperately shouting that this is true. |
| 板で助け求めたって | ita de tasuke motometa tte | Even when I’m calling for help while clinging to a board, |
| 手を差し伸べてくるのはクズばかり | te o sashinobete kuru no wa kuzu bakari | Nobody but scumbags will reach out to me. |
| 私はあなたに生きて欲しいって | watashi wa anata ni ikite hoshii tte | “I want you to live on,” |
| 僕の意思はくんでくれてなくて | boku no ishi wa kundekurete nakute | You don’t seem to respect my feelings. |
| 限界でもこぼれはしなくって | genkai demo kobore wa shinakutte | While I didn’t overflow when I was at my limit, |
| でも確かに 限界だったんだ | demo tashika ni genkai datta nda | But I had certainly reached my limits then. |
| 光ってた 嫌でも見えてしまうから | hikatteta iya demo miete shimau kara | It glowed. It came into view even when I didn’t want it. |
| また回帰してんだって | mata kaiki shite ndatte | “It’s looping again,” |
| 言ったんだ 僕が 僕を | itta nda boku ga boku o | I said, so that I would |
| これ以上壊してしまわないように | kore ijou kowashite shimawanai you ni | Not destroy myself more. |
| また同じことを言い聞かせて騙してく | mata onaji koto o iikikasete damashiteku | I’m convincing myself of the same thing to deceive myself. |
| 明日もきっと辛いんだよ | ashita mo kitto tsurai nda yo | I’m sure I’ll have it tough tomorrow too. |
| 愛情 被害妄想路 逃走 不届き者な奇妙な僕に捧ぐ | aijou higai mousouro tousou futodoki mono na kimyou na boku ni sasagu | Affection. Path for paranoid. Runaway. I dedicate this to my rude, bizarre self. |
| まだ終わってないと | mada owatte nai to | “It’s not over yet,” I said. |
| 泣いたりしない 逃げてる分際で | naitari shinai nigeteru bunzai de | I won’t cry. When I’m a fugitive, |
| 笑ったりして 笑うのもダメかな | warattari shite warau no mo dame ka na | I laugh and do some other stuff. Am I not supposed to laugh? |
| 吐いたりして 誰にも気付かれない | haitari shite dare ni mo kizukarenai | Sometimes I throw up. Nobody notices me. |
| やっぱりね 誰にも言えないか | yappari ne dare ni mo ienai ka | Just as I thought. I can’t tell anybody. |
| 消えたくて 痛いの嫌だしね | kietakute itai no iya da shi ne | I want to disappear. I hate pain. |
| 苦しいね またこぼれそうだね | kurushii ne mata koboresou da ne | It’s suffocating. It’s about to overflow again. |
| 誰かにね聞こえてたらいいね | dareka ni ne kikoetetara ii ne | I wish somebody were hearing this. |
| もうやめて やめて | mou yamete yamete | Just stop this already. Stop it. |
| 光ってたんだ 悪夢みたいに何度も | hikatteta nda akumu mitai ni nando mo | It glowed. Over and over, like a nightmare. |
| もう疲れたよ 誰か終わらせて | mou tsukareta yo dareka owarasete | I’m sick of it. Somebody, end this. |
| また同じ事を言い聞かせて狂ってく | mata onaji koto o iikikasete kurutteku | I’m convincing myself of the same thing, only to go mad. |
| 明日はきっと来ないから | ashita wa kitto konai kara | I’m sure that tomorrow won’t come for me. |
| 奔走 羨望 来ない未来まで愛したいと思う僕だからせめて | honsou senbou konai mirai made aishitai to omou boku dakara semete | Running about. Envy. Because I wish to love the future that won’t come, so at least, |
| もう終わっていいと | mou owatte ii to | Give me “you can end now”— |
| 光ってた 嫌でも見えてしまうから | hikatteta iya demo miete shimau kara | It glowed. It came into view even when I didn’t want it, |
| 目を閉じたの | me o tojita no | So I closed my eyes. |
| 笑ってた 人に気付いてほしいから | waratteta hito ni kizuite hoshii kara | I smiled, because I wanted people to notice me. |
| でも もう 上手く生きていけないから | demo mou umaku ikite ikenai kara | But now, I don’t think I can live on, |
| 黙ってた 人に見られたくないから | damatteta hito ni miraretakunai kara | So I clammed up, because I didn’t want people to see me. |
| 光ってた 明日は望んでも来なくて | hikatteta ashita wa nozonde mo konakute | It glowed—the next day did, but it never came even if I wished. |
| また回帰してんだって | mata kaiki shite ndatte | “It’s looping again,” |
| 言ったんだ 他人が 僕が 自分のせいにしたがらぬように | itta nda tanin ga boku ga jibun no sei ni shitagarame you ni | I said, so that other people and myself would not blame it on me. |
| また同じことを言い聞かせたそのあとに | mata onaji koto o iikikaseta sono ato ni | I convinced myself of the same thing, and after that, |
| ココロに何が残るかな | kokoro ni nani ga nokoru ka na | What will be left in my heart? |
| 愛情 被害妄想路 逃走 奔走 回帰 繰り返し 妄想 | aijou higai mousouro tousou honsou kaiki kurikaeshi mousou | Affection. Path for paranoid. Runaway. Running about. Loop. Repeat. Delusion. |
| 難題 思考 矛盾 それぞれの思考愛してあげられなかったの | nandai shikou mujun sorezore no shikou aishite agerarenakatta no | Difficult problems. Thoughts. Contradiction. I was unable to love each idea. |
| 正解か不正解かまだ見えず正解決めてドヤってるアホが | seikai ka fuseikai ka mada miezu seikai kimete doyatteru aho ga | Without being able to see if it’s correct or incorrect, they decide the correct answer and had a smug look. |
| 作った世界に不正解掲げて飛んだ人わ憐れむ健常者と | tsukutta sekai ni fuseikai kakagete tonda hito wa awaremu kenjousha to | To the world made by those idiots, some people held up “INCORRECT” and jumped off, to whom non-disabled people sympathized; |
| 自分可愛さに黙秘を続ける人を弱者と非難する人等が情がないと | jibun kawaisa ni mokuhi o tsuzukeru hito o jakusha to hinan suru tora ga shou ga nai to | Some people blame those who keep silence to protect themselves, calling them weak; if you could call them heartless, |
| 言えばそれで良かった ただそれは基盤の上で行われた | ieba sore de yokatta tada sore wa kiban no ue de okonawareta | That would have been fair enough, yet it was performed on the basis. |
| もう疲れたんだって でもまた | mou tsukareta ndatte demo mata | I’m sick of it already. But again... |
English translation by Tackmyn Y.
External Links
- Google Drive - Off-vocal & lyrics
Unofficial
- VocaDB
- Tackmyn’s House - Translation source